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Mon, Mar. 14th, 2005, 04:53 pm
>>"I want you to want me"<<

hey, today was intersesting. i had a fun day at school. but all my friends are either mad at me or sad. i also need to do a lot of work. i gotta get a job, my license, a band together, anda boyfriend....it's too much sometimes. i'm not one for work either. i need someone to love so bad it hurts sometimes.i feel like i work too hard to make it work, and sometiems it ruins it. i go too fast. i'm ready to go slow though. i guess it's just i'd been in love 2 years straight, and i don't like being alone, i'm not used to it. my ex's either found someone else or i couldn't handle them. everyone says i have what it takes, well if i do then why doesn't anyone like me? i used to always have at least someone cute like me, someone at all, and now no one does. not just guys tho, i need a band too. i have so much passion for music i need it or i'll go crazy. i don't wanna listen to music, i wanna make it. i wanna record it. i wanna write it. i wanna play it. live someday, on stage... but for now, i can only lay on my bed and listen to the music in my head or from the speakers...not from me though. I need a job, a job to pay for my clothes, car, expenses, insurance. i need my license to grow up and be able to go out more when i need to.At least i have one good thing. friends, i have four great friends i can't get enought of, they almake me laugh care about me, and know how to have fun. i'm glad i found them. in case you're all wondering, it's Rachel, Jaime, Kelly and Jen. I have to go , but i just wanna say i don't ask for you pity, or attention, just for someone to talk to about all this. thanx. ciao</3:-/ ~Sofia A.

Mon, Mar. 14th, 2005, 09:15 am

hey guys! at least whoever reads my lj...anyways, i'm here in the music tech room playini music....hell yea! nd dancin -double hell yea! ooooooh!oh! rachell's turn....(sry had to edit that:-/) boo boo kitty *beep*!!!! drop it like its hawt pop it like its hawttttt!! oh oh ohhhhhhhh! hehe ok, she's done...lucas's turn!-I'm sismart, I'm sismart, S-M-R-T, I meam, S-M-A-R-T!-haha ok, he's def. done. so how's everyone doin? i gotta start a band this month i wanna freakin sing! so yea....i'm in school and don't feel like writing, so i hope yall are good and i'll ttyl, byes!:)<3

love sofia</3

Sat, Mar. 12th, 2005, 07:38 pm
my song~(and jaime's)

"big and rich-holy water"

Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell

Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she crys

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

Thu, Mar. 10th, 2005, 04:33 pm
the first song i learned to sing.....my favorite song to sing....not kareoke tho;)haha

Ironic


An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic... don't you think?

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think?

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think?
A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

Thu, Mar. 10th, 2005, 03:18 pm

here's a lil poem i wrote last night.....

 

cover up a lie........i do care.

 

I'm tired of waiting,

sick of wishing,

fed up w/ making the first move,

i wish they'd do something,

something to move on,

forwards or backwards,

i'm done w/ dreaming,

i don't want commitment no more,

not even just a "hook up",

i need someone to kiss and cuddle with,

can't they give me a chance?,

they judge by reputation , image, and friends,

i only want to get to know them,

not marry them.....guys...

 

why do guys have to make things so complicated...i wish they all read this...bye.

 

Wed, Mar. 9th, 2005, 05:25 pm
my current theme song....

Hello? Hey mom, it's me mom
Can't tell you where I sleep mom
Cause that's where we be mom
Sometimes I steal and cheat mom
Yes, I get enough to eat mom
Mom, can you listen to me?
No! I don't mess with guns
Yes in my travels I have seen one
No, being a runaway is no fun
But house rules sure were not fun
Something told me to

[Chorus - Joel Madden & Benji Madden]
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
And I don't care now
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
Cause we don't get out
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
I'll pack my things now
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
Fuck this shit right now, I'm checking out
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)
(Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump! Jump!)

[Verse 2 - Joel Madden]
Hey dad, I'm ok dad, that's what you say dad
I never could obey dad
You would have bad days dad
And you would make me pay dad
Make me feel way sad
Punk rock, tatoos, leather jacket
Good grades don't come with that package
Yes y'all I would love to match it
But names just make it harder to hack it by

[Chorus]

[Verse 3 - Pharrell + (Joel Madden)]
Don't let your teachers teach you about wealth to death
Maybe there's something else (I'm checking out)
Don't let NASA teach you that we are by ourselves
Cause trust me there's something else (I'm checking out)
Oh la la la, la la, la la - la la la, la la, la la
Shh.. maybe there's something else (I'm checking out)
See we're not part of the magna charta
There's no shuttle for us to charter
No.. they're keeping it for themselves (I'm checking out)
Tell my ex-girlfriend I'm trying
And her new boyfriend I'd fight him
And what about my couzins?
Tell em that I love em
I'm not perfect nor facetious
But at home I've felt seedless
Your son completely hateless
Turn to BBC you should see this
A thousand heads

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
I woke up thinking someday (I'm checking out) (jump!)
Wish I had it my way (jump!)
Though I'm a rebel some can say (I'm checking out) (jump!)
I'm told it's neither (jump! jump! jump!)
(I'm checking out) ..
(I'm checking out)
[scratched] N-E-R-D

(FINISH THIS SHIT)
Astronaut suits by the BBC

Tue, Mar. 8th, 2005, 10:15 pm
~sing my song~ read it...it's exactly what i feel...<3

i'm gonna sing my song, no matter what!

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
And nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothing's been going my way lately
But I decided right here, right now
That my outlook's gonna change
That's why I'm gonna

Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
Every time somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live my life and
Take the time to look at what is mine

I see, every blessing, so clearly
And I thank God, for what, I got from above

I believe they can take anything from me, but they
Can't succeed in taking my inner piece from me
They can say all they wanna say about me, but I
I'm gonna carry on (carry on)
I'ma keep on (keep on)
Singing my song, yeah yeah

I never wanna dwell on the pain again, ooh no no
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then, oh, oh no
Remembering too well the hell I felt
When I was running out of faith, oh
Every step I'm about to take
Well it's towards a better day
'Cause I'm about to

Say farewell to every single lie
And all the fears I've held too long inside
Every time I felt I couldn't try
All the negativity and strife

Cause too long, I've been, struggling, couldn't go on
But now, I've found, I'm feeling strong and I'm moving on

I believe they can take anything from me, but they
Can't succeed in taking my inner piece from me
Now they can say all they wanna say about me, but I
I'm gonna carry on (carry on)
I'ma keep on (keep on)
Singing my song

Yeah, ohh ooh

Every time I tried to be
What they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery
Was unable to see
All the good around me
Wasting so much energy
On what they thought of me
Than simply just remembering to breathe, ohh ooh
Ohh, I've learned
I'm humanly unable to please
Everyone at the same time
So now I find, my peace of mind
Living one day at a time

In the end I answer to one God
Comes down to one love
Till I get to heaven above
I have made the decision
Never to give in
Till the day I die no matter what
I'm gonna carry on
I'ma keep on, mmm
Singing my song...

I believe they can take anything from me
(I believe, yeah)
But they can't succeed in taking my inner piece from me
(Oh, oh)

They can do what they wanna
Say what they wanna say, ohh oh
(They can say what they wanna)
But I'm gonna (I'm gonna)
Keep on (keep on)
Ooh

I believe that they can take from me
But they can't take my inner peace
Ohh, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Say what they wanna say (wanna say)
I am gonna sing my song
Oh, oh, oh, yeah, yeah


Hidden Outro:

Hey hey, did you see that
Hey dog, hey dog
Hi
It's me Wassim
Hi
Is that it
Yes
Are we done
You're done
Can we go home now
Goodbye
Dig your nose
Stop
Please, thank you
I'm done
You're welcome

Tue, Mar. 8th, 2005, 10:13 pm
>>my dream boyfriend...just a fantasy<<

[ Infatuation ]


Ooh oh, hey
Hey...ooh ohh, hey

He comes from a foreign place
An island far away
Intrigues me with every move
Till I'm breathless, I'm helpless
Can't keep my cool
Steals my heart when he takes my hand
And we dance, to the rhythm of the band
I feel his fingertips, grip my hips
And I slip as we dip into a state of bliss

Mama used to warn me
To beware those Latin lovers
She said I gave my heart too soon
And that's how I became your mother
I said, ay Mama, you seem to forget
I'm not in love yet
Sweet talk don't win me over
But I realize
Big brown eyes can hypnotize
When he says

I am full blood boricua
Read the tattoo on his arm (ohh)
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heart beat pumps so strong (oh)
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)
It's pure infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)
Hey

Skin the color of cinnamon
His eyes light up and I melt within
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what I started
I'm giving in
He brings life to my fantasies
Sparks a passion inside of me
Finds the words when I can not speak
In the silence his heartbeat is music to me

Mama used to warn me
Not to rush love with another
She said I'm not trying to lecture
I just care about my daughter
Ay Mama, you seem to forget
I never will let
A man control my emotions
But when he smiles (when he smiles)
I feel like a little child
And when he says

I am full blood boricua
Read the tattoo on his arm (whoa, whoa)
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heart beat pumps so strong (so strong)
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)
It's pure infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)

Caught between my mama's words
And what I feel inside
I'm wanting to explore his world
But part of me wants to hide
Should I risk it, can't resist it
This has caught me by surprise
Should I let him take me to Puerto Rico
I can't hold back no more
Let's go tonight...
Ooh, hey

Papi hold me, say that you adore me (you adore me)
Never let go, never leave me lonely (leaving me lonely)
Papi hold me, say that you adore me (ohh)
Never let go, never leave me lonely

I am full blood boricua (boricua)
Read the tattoo on his arm (on his arm)
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heart beat pumps so strong (so strong, oh)
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero (oh, quiero)
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation

I can't help, what I'm feeling
Infatuated
Oh ooh
Ohh...
Infatuation
Hey

Tue, Mar. 8th, 2005, 10:12 pm
>>MY ANTHEM<<

>>MY ANTHEM<<

"Can't hold us down"

So what am I not supposed to have an opinion?
Should I keep quiet just because I'm a woman?
Call me a bitch (bitch) cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled

When a female fires back
Suddenly the target don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Making up a few false rumors or two

That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout out loud
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will,
Can't hold us down

Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Nobody can hold us down
Never can, never will

So what am I not supposed to say what I'm sayin
Are you offended with the message I'm bringin
Call me whatever cause your words don't mean a thing
Guess you even ain't a man enough to handle what I sing

If you look back in history
It's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why it's okay
The guys can get away with it, the girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change and
Start a new beginning for us, everybody sing

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
What do we do girls?
Shout out loud!
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em round
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will, can't hold us down

Lil' Kim:
Check it - Here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's the man
He can either give her some head,or sex her raw
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cat's take my ideas and put their name on it
It's aiight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on movin'
To all my girls with a man who be tryin to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back

You're just a little boy
Think you're so cute, so coy
You must talk so big
To make up for smaller things
You're just a little boy
All you'll do is annoy
You must talk so big
To make up for smaller things

This is for my girls...
This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout out loud
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em round
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will,
Can't hold us down

This is for my girls all around the world
Who've come across a man who don't respect your worth
Thinking all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground
Lift your hands high and wave 'em proud
Take a deep breath and say it loud
Never can, never will,
Can't hold us down
Spread the word
Can't hold us down

Mon, Mar. 7th, 2005, 06:54 pm
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