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Mon, Mar. 7th, 2005, 06:21 pm

today had to be the most boring day ever. school was fun, i was miss pink. I used rachel's eyeliner and pink eyeshadow, it was nice. I got home, and went online, which os getting boring...i got help from friends though:) I hve to go, but wish me luck everyone, i hope i get a life soon....haha bye people ,later

Sun, Mar. 6th, 2005, 10:32 pm
music is my life

The sound hits your ears like smoke filling your lungs. Suddenly fading away like being drunk on a hot summer night. Lying in the grass laughing and making wishes on airplanes you thought were stars. You can't feel anything and your senses are enhanced by a thousand degrees all at the same time. Real. Real like the blood seeping from an open wound, real like the aching from a freshly broken heart. Fake. Fake like the smiles on the people walking all around you, fake like the answer you give when someone asks if you're okay when they already know that you're not. Salty like the tears that run down your cheeks and die on your lips, and sweet like the taste of fresh fruit when you first bite into it. And it courses through your veins and pounds inside your head over and over again and you have no choice but to forget everything that you've ever felt and remember everything you've ever known all at the same time. The words blurr together and the music carries you away to a place that has no name. And no matter how dead you are inside, and no matter where you are or who your with or what your doing or the feeling hiding in your heart, music makes you come to life again. Music kills you when it hits your ears and reminds of you that kiss that never should have left your lips, or that night behind the jungle gym with all of your friends and ten bottles of vodka, or that morning after your heart was ripped out by the one you love all over again. It's what once was. It's what's to come. It's everything going on around you right now and all the time. Music is everything. Music is death. Music is life. Music is everything we are and without it we are all a lie.
~Jaime Twombly

Sun, Mar. 6th, 2005, 10:31 pm
God's will...beautiful song

I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
It hid the braces on his legs at first

His smile was as bright as the August sun
When he looked at me
As he struggled down the driveway, it almost
Made me hurt

Will don't walk too good
Will don't talk too good
He won't do the things that the other kids do,
In our neighborhood

[Chorus:]
I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God's Will

Will's mom had to work two jobs
We'd watch him when she had to work late
And we'd all laugh like I hadn't laughed
Since I don't know when

Hey Jude was his favorite song
At dinner he'd ask to pray
And then he'd pray for everybody in the world but him

[Chorus]

Before they moved to California
His mother said, they didn't think he'd live
And she said each day that I have him, well it's just
another gift
And I never got to tell her, that the boy
Showed me the truth
In crayon red, on notebook paper, he'd written
Me and God love you

I've been searchin', prayin', wounded, jaded
I guess I would be still
Yeah that was until...
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves

Sun, Mar. 6th, 2005, 04:50 pm

hey people....i am sooo tired and scared. i'm not doing well in any of my classes and i think my parents got midterms today. which means total grounding. and no freedom. if i stop writing in this, don't be surprised. on a happier note, i went to a family firend's house and e had mashed potatoes turkey wine and ice crem...kinda like thanksgiving. I lonly ate a il mashed potatoes, alil ice cream and had a lil wine. it was fun. i saw a spongebob squarepants movie and it was as stupid as stupid gets, but w/e. i'm pretty bored today, but phsyced i get to do my hw tomorow first period in the library...hahah tmi, anyways, i'm kinda happy. i'll write more later, i don't have much more to write about....bye

Sat, Mar. 5th, 2005, 06:34 pm
wild one

Well I'm just outta school
Like I'm real real cool
Gotta dance like a fool
Get the message that
I wanna be a wild one
Ooh yeah I'm a wild one
Gotta break it loose
Gotta keep it movin' wild
Gotta keep it swingin', baby
I'm a real wild child
I'm a real wild one
And I like wild fun
In a world gone crazy
Everything seems hazy
I'm a wild one
Ooh yeah I'm a wild one
Gotta break it loose
Gotta keep it movin' wild
Gotta keep it swingin', baby
I'm a real wild child

Well I'm just outta school
Like I'm real real cool
Gotta dance like a fool
Get the message that
I wanna be a wild one
Ooh yeah I'm a wild one
Gotta break it loose
Gotta keep it movin' wild
Gotta keep it swingin', baby
I'm a real wild child

I'm a wild one
Ooh yeah I'm a wild one
Ooh yeah I'm a wild one
Ooh yeah I'm a wild one
Gotta break it loose
Gotta keep it movin' wild
Gotta keep it swingin', baby
I'm a real wild child
Break it loose
Keep it movin' wild
Gotta keep it swingin', baby
I'm a real wild child
Break it loose
Keep it movin' wild
Gotta keep it swingin', baby
I'm a real wild child

Sat, Mar. 5th, 2005, 06:33 pm
spin around

Spin around come back home
You're runnin out on a line
Sometimes feel I'm going outta my mind
Stunned here waitin for anyone to take the time
Spin around we get further and further away
Smile and wave and ain't got nothin to say
Stunned here waitin for anyone to take the time
To change my mind this time

I've been starin' at the sun for some time
It gets dark inside but I don't mind
And if you're gone its like I'm goin' blind
I can't get by this time

Spin around jump back take another look at yourself
You've been hidin' all alone on a shelf
Frozen waitin for anyone who'll change my mind
Spin around well come down now cause its all getting clear
Everything you ever wanted is here
We never needed anyone to change your mind
Don't waste our time
We're fine

I've been starin at the sun for some time
It gets dark inside but I don't mind
And if you're gone it likes I'm going blind
I can't get by this time

Sat, Mar. 5th, 2005, 06:05 pm
Where are you?

stop leaving everytime i say "hi". why?

Sat, Mar. 5th, 2005, 04:09 pm
cute song, huh?.......well i'm feelin some of this...

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough

I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
And tumblin' and breakin'

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights

I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get

I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

Sat, Mar. 5th, 2005, 11:11 am

hey guys! i woke up this morning, and i thought, "today's gonna be good, fun.". i was so happy, i don't kno why tho. w/e, it's cool. anyways, i'm in a good mood, and hope u all are too. i felt soo pretty w/ no makeup on this morning, i took a few pics, sry if this is too concided, tell me if it is....buti was soo happy,i had to. love u guys! ciao!

just outta bed..
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After that pic...i think this is ugly...
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After dressed...still no makeup
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k, bye guys:)<3 ya all

Fri, Mar. 4th, 2005, 10:27 pm
FUN ITMES AT BEDFORD HIGH

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